Adventures of a Shockingly Average 30-Something

He's gonna be ok. I just need to see him, to see he's really ok.. ya know? I want to hug him and never let go, never let anything ever happen to him again.

He's three years old. His name is Nathan Tyler. He has bright reddish-orangish hair and big blue eyes. His smile can melt any heart, and he is the sweetest, most amazing kid in the world. He's so innocent and good and such a happy child. I love him like he's my own baby. He's in the hospital right now. And he might not make it. He was at a birthday party. He fell and hurt his spine really badly. He had to be air-lifted to Albany Med. He's so constipated and everything because of it that if he doesn't get surgery soon enough, he won't make it. I need him to be ok. His family needs him to be ok. He's three years old, for Gods sake. He has his whole fricking life ahead of him. Why do things like this happen?? I don't get it! I don't understand it. I'm angry and upset and I don't even know what other feelings. How does something like this happen? Why? I've been crying for the last 40 minutes. I love him like he's MY k...

I post earlier about "ok, I'm not gonna be needing that much money this summer." Dad texted me a couple hours ago. He has an extra ticket to the Toby Keith concert July 9th. It's mine........ if I can come up with the money to get down to his house. Ugh, life, why must you torture me so? I love Toby Keith's music, and dad just had to let me know this fact after I'd already spent twenty-five bucks on that dang Aaron Carter t-shirt. Grrr.

I'm so good at wasting my money on things I really don't need. No, that's not a good thing, and I'm not really trying to make it sound like one. That was more of a "ugh why am I such an idiot???" statement. Since it's summer, and I work as a tutor at college, I'm not working right now. I won't be working again until September. It's only the beginning of June right now. So the money I have saved is all I have to last me the whole summer. Now, I still live with my mom, so she pays for things I need , but if I want something I have to buy it. I had $170. Ok, not bad. That's almost $200 and really what am I gonna need to spend almost $200 on? Then Aaron Carter posted on twitter that you could buy Aaron Carter shirts at Heroics Clothing . No , I told myself, you don't need one. Save your money . For two, maybe three, days I kept looking at the shirts, kept telling myself no . Guess who spent $25 for an Aaron Carter shirt last n...

I know I'm living my life. For the most part, I'm the one who makes the decisions I have to live with. But I don't always make the best decisions. I freaking NEED people to help me out sometimes and give me a good smack upside the head. I've had since last Wednesday to do my homework for Western Civ. When did I do it? Well, I finished a couple hours ago. When do I have class again? Hmm... oh, tomorrow. I'm a freaking genius (note the sarcasm there) and waited until the night before it's due to even look at it. And even better? We have a quiz tomorrow. On the 3,000 years I spent 3 hours looking through. If I ever leave 3,000 years of history to go over in just a couple hours... smack me upside the head and ask me what the heck I was thinking.