Why can't I get myself to speak up?
Sometimes - a lot of the time, actually - I think of how I should speak up and say something. But instead, I just get quiet and kind of take myself out of the conversation. Today, I went to my sister's graduation party/moving-up-from-8th-grade party for my cousin. So from 2 in the afternoon until I got home around 9:30ish, I was around too many 12 - 18 year olds to count. The majority of the kids were my cousins' friends, so 13-15 year olds. And I got to listen to them talking to each other in that [sarcasm] oh-so- wonderful [/sarcasm] way ~14 year old kids do. "You're so retarded!" "God you're such a f**king retard!" "Pick him last, he plays like a retard." "Hahaha look at him playing on that digger thing like a retard." "Look at the boys walking on top of the monkey bars. They're so retarded, they're gonna fall." "Just go under the water and it won't feel as cold. Everyone knows that, ...