Adventures of a Shockingly Average 30-Something

I'm gonna be TWENTY YEARS OLD soon!!! That's so freaking crazy! Like... really soon. See: October 10 - MY BIRTHDAY!!! October 9 - 1 day. October 8 - 2 days. October 7 - 3 days. October 6 - 4 days. October 5 - 5 days. (and my friend James's birthday, and my almost step-sister Courtney's birthday) October 4 - 6 days. October 3 - 7 days. October 2 - 8 days. October 1 - 9 days. September 30 - 10 days. September 29 - 11 days. I really shouldn't even count today, seeing as it'll be tomorrow in about 45 minutes.... so I'm going to be 20 in 10 days. Oh. My. God. I'm going to be old. Haha. I'm happy I'll be home for my birthday though. :) I get home around 9 at night on the 7th and then leave to go back to school around noon-ish on the 11th. So I'll be home all day the 8th, 9th, and 10th, and then the morning of the 11th. So I'll be home for my birthday. Which is good. There was a meeting for people who were just admitted into the Child...

I miss Nathan and Trisha so much. And Candis. But I know I'll see Nathan and TT soon; I don't know when, or if, I'll see Candis again. I don't think anyone knows just how hard it was for me to write that sentence, to write down that I don't even know if I'll see Candis again. My princess. I'm not giving up hope that she'll be at her grandmother's house again someday. It's been just over seven months now, since I've seen her. It's SO hard not being a part of her life anymore; I don't think anyone really truly understands that. I was such a huge part of her life since she was born, then her parents and her moved away.. and then came back, and I was a big part in her life again; and she was a big part of my life. She was pretty much my baby sometimes, that's how it felt. And now it's been seven months since her mom and her moved to Florida. Seven months since I've seen her. I still have the Dora and Tinkerbell stick...

The death penalty is SO wrong. I don't care who you are, I don't care what you did, NOBODY deserves to die. "An eye for an eye makes the whole world blind" - Ghandi Why can't we live by that saying? They didn't even have proof that Troy Davis killed that police officer. I just finished reading an article about it, that said that the man who was with him the night that officer was shot admitted to shooting the officer. The supposed murder weapon was never found. 7 of the 9 eyewitnesses changed their stories to say what they said happened didn't happen. Even some of the jurors admitted that they'd changed their mind about his guilt. So what did they do? They executed him anyway. They couldn't prove he did it, and they killed him anyway. He spent 20 years in jail for a crime he might not have committed, and was killed last night for that crime. The crime he might not have even committed. Right up until he was MURDERED, he claimed innocence. I ...

I was going to write on here, and I even knew what I was going to write. Then I went and hung out with people instead, and now I'm just writing on here with no idea of what to write, simply because I said I'd write. My brain is so fried right now. I just need a good long sleep, one that's NOT interrupted by the fire alarm going off. This was my day today: 6:00 AM - wake up, eat breakfast 6:30 AM - shower, get dressed, pack my bag for class 7:40 AM - leave for class. 8:00 AM - 9:15 AM - art class (Survey Art: Renaissance - Modern Times) 9:30 AM - 10:45 AM psych class (Child Development Psychology) 11:00 AM - 12 noon - art homework (making flash cards to study with). 12:15 PM - lunch 1:00 PM - 4:00 PM - study for the art test Thursday morning. 4:10 PM - leave to go to the history computer lab 4:20 PM - 6:20 PM - history homework 6:30 PM - dinner 7:00 PM - 8:00 PM - lgbtaa 8:00 PM - 9:30 PM - physics homework 10:00 PM - late night (food.) 10:30 PM - 11:30 PM - reading / han...

I'm so tired, but I can't sleep. I feel like... I'm too tired to sleep. I love it here, I really really really do, but I'm SO tired. I'm staying up late every night, getting up early every morning, and staying busy all day everyday. I'm not used to this. At all. I feel like I could fall asleep, and just stay sleeping for an entire night and day. It's only been 2 weeks now, but it feels like it's been so much longer. I love it! I love being so close to everybody already. Like my one friend, Sam. I've known him for exactly 2 weeks now, and I already consider him to be one of my best friends. Not just best friends here on this floor, or here at college, but best friends in life. I trust him, you know? That terrifies me, that I trust someone so quickly. But I do. And I'm just gonna go with it, you know? Like... it scares me that I trust someone so much already, but I do, and I'm not gonna fight it. I should probably get some sleep....

I love the people on my floor. I love the friends I've made. I love my RA. I love playing Apples To Apples. I love laundry parties and homework parties. I love being on a substance free floor. I love inside jokes. I love staying up until 4 in the morning hanging out with people. I love being away from home. Basically, I love everything here. Except for my classes. I'm not a huge fan of them. Haha. Physics lecture is easy, but lab is a bitchhhhhh. Psych is boring because I've already taken that class (yay for getting super screwed over with credits when I transferred!!). Art is going to be hard, because it's a lot of memorization. History is hard because: a) it's history, b) it's a hybrid course that only meets in the classroom once a week, and c) I don't like the teacher's teaching style. But, yeah. Aside from classes, I really really really love it here. Before I got here, I was so scared about meeting people and making friends, but I really luc...