Adventures of a Shockingly Average 30-Something

Soo... I decided not to post that bit of my essay after all.  I deleted that post, as I just thought it was pointless.  But, then again.... I don't know.  Today was amazing, just in case you were wondering.  Cuz I saw  her .  And smiled at me.  And she told me she liked my hair cut.  She said it was cute.  She said it makes me look older, which is good.  She said she loves it. ♥ But anyway.  That's not what this post was going to be about.  I thought I'd share some little bits and pieces of things I've wrote with you all.  I love writing, especially writing in first person.  I can't explain the way it makes me feel, to write from the point of view of someone else.  You have to create this imaginary person, and make them real.  You have to, when you're writing, completely become your character.  For whatever amount of time you spend writing, you're you, but at the same time, you're someone other than yourself.  You're right where you are, but you...

My webcam takes crappy pictures.  But whatever.  I'm posting them anyway.  :)

Nathan is 3 years old.  And yet this kid, this little three years old kid , can teach the world so much more than the world could ever realize.  Kids really are so smart and they know so much more than people give them credit for.  People tend to over look them because they're so young and because they don' t word their phrases the way adults do (which is good.  It'd be weird if he spoke like adults do). Here's some of my favorite things he's said. ------------------ (about what he wants for Christmas this year) - "I just want my teeth back.  And a job." ------------------ me: Candis I love youuu *Candis smiles* Nathan: Sometimes a smile is "I love you back." ------------------ "I like Nikki's better. There's more colors and colors make people happy a lot." ------------------ (talking about Connie Talbot, after hearing the "Rainbow Bear" sing Connie's song.  There is a picture of Connie on the tag, and he was look...

I didn't want to admit it before, because I thought the feeling would pass if I tried hard enough to ignore it, if I tried hard enough to be happy, but it's not going away. I kept thinking to myself that if I couldn't feel happy inside, it was because I just I wasn't trying hard enough. I don't know what it is, but all the time lately, I feel like I'm 3 seconds away from crying. I feel like I'm going to just break down, and never be able to get back up. I'm feeling a lot like I did last year, and I don't know why. Things right now are so much different than they were before. And I was happy for a while there. But... I kinda feel like I'm on the outside, looking in on people. I don't feel connected with anyone except the kids downstairs from me, Candis and Nathan especially. You want to see the most real smile you'll ever see on my face? Watch me when I'm with those two. I feel like they're the only things keeping me all ...

Hey you guys! This charity that I care A LOT about is trying for the #PepsiRefresh grant. Will you spare a few minutes of your time to help? Just a few minutes of your time could help to save a child's life. Back in August, Hannah's Hope Fund ( http://www.hannahshopefund.org ) won a $250,000 grant from Pepsi to go towards funding for their GAN gene delivery trial. However, they still need another 1.2 million dollars of funding. That's why right now, the month of November, they are trying for another Pepsi Refresh Grant. They need to come in either 1st or 2nd place to get the money. Could you guys vote for them to win the grant money? There's three different ways to vote, and you can vote all three ways every day this month. Voting ends at midnight, November 30th. The three ways you can vote: 1. ONLINE -- Vote at http://www.refresheverything.com/hannahshope with every valid email account you have (work, personal, yahoo, gmail, etc.) After you vote, click the Facebook ...