Adventures of a Shockingly Average 30-Something

Dear you, I'm sorry I'm not good enough to be your friend.  I'm sorry I've never been good enough.  I'm sorry I tried.  I'm sorry I wasted so many years trying so hard to be a good friend, when it turns out that we're apparently only friends if no one has to know we're friends.  I'm sorry I'm the friend you turn to when everyone else is busy.  I'm sorry all of our sleepovers and all the secrets we shared and all the memories and everything don't mean anything to you.  I'm sorry those BEST FRIENDS key chains we got in middle school, that I still have, don't mean anything.  I'm sorry for all the times I was the only one who was there for you.  I'm sorry the fact that I've always been there for you even if you haven't been there for me only meant something to me.  I'm sorry.  I'm sorry.  I'm sorry.  I'm sorry. I want to be done.  I wish I could be done.  But I can't.  Because this is the ...

So what to say........... It's been forever and a day and a half since I last posted anything here.  Yeah. Um... Oh! Grades were FINALLY posted.  I did WAY better than I did in the fall. 4.0 in School Health 4.0 in Math for Elementary Ed. 1 3.7 in Young Adult Lit 3.7 in Children's Lit 3.0 in European History and Geography S in Cooperative Activities (the gym class I took).  S is good, in case you were wondering.  In gym classes, you don't get an actual grade; you either get Satisfactory (pass) or Unsatisfactory (fail).  So I passed it. 3.65 GPA for the semester, which is REALLY good!  And 3.34 overall, which isn't too  bad, but I'll get it up higher because I'll do good in my classes next semester too. So yeah.  Home for the summer.  Not so sure how I feel about this.  I don't want to argue with my mom the whole summer, and I'm trying so hard not to argue with anyone about anything.  I hate fighting and arguing. ...