Four Years.
Four years. Dear god. How has it been nearly four whole years since I last posted anything on here? How has time flown by that quickly? How did I go from documenting far too much of my life on the internet to posting pretty much only on Instagram? What's even new in four years?? I doubt anyone is reading this, but if you are- hello! Hope you're well.
Anyway.
We have three cats. I don't think we even had one last time I wrote here. We have Julian, our one-eyed orange butthead. He's three; he'll be four in March. Then there's Moosey-Moo. Or, well, technically just Moose. But he's got the most nicknames of the three. He's my babiest baby in the world. He'll be two in April, and he's so so so big - almost 15 pounds! We paid for a kitty DNA test and found out that he's mostly Maine Coon and Russian Blue (thanks Basepaws!). And then, finally, our most recent addition - sweet baby Cheese (better known by her actual name of Cheddar). She's five, almost six, and is the snuggliest monster in this house.
I'm still working the same job I hate, and feel like I'm going to be stuck there forever. I keep applying places constantly, but never hear back - and I almost think part of me is relieved by that. As much as I hate my job, I'm GOOD at it. I was an over achiever as a kid, who constantly was praised for doing well. I was praised for it so much that honestly, not being good at something is probably one of my biggest fears. And if I start a new job... I feel like, for me, if I'm not immediately good at it, I'm going to feel like a failure. How does that even make sense? Logically, I know that I can't immediately be the best at something I've never done, but at the same time, if I'm not the best then I'm failing. I feel stuck. And I hate it. I did just apply someplace though, that I think I can do. At least based on the job description from Indeed... but when I googled the company, it didn't seem to fit with the description on there. But who knows. I guess we'll see. It doesn't matter; I probably won't get a call or email back - I never do. It feels like to get a job nowadays, you have to already know someone working there. Whatever. It'll work out whatever way it's supposed to.
I've read a bunchhhh of really good books, and have new favorite authors. I love everything I've read so far by Sarah J Maas and Leigh Bardugo. I'm really enjoying the Nevernight trilogy by Jay Kristoff, but I don't know that I can list him as a favorite since I've only read two and a half books by him so far. But I'm pretty sure he's a favorite too.
I'm working really hard on paying down my debt. Between my student loans and my credit card(s....), I started this year with about $25,700 worth of debt. But I'm trying. I took my credit card and my Kohls card out of my wallet, and haven't used either this year. And if I've done the math right, I should be ending the year with about $21,000 worth of debt. Which is a lot. But it's less. I'm working on it. I'm getting there. I should be completely done paying off my student loans by July of 2025, and then my credit cards should be paid off shortly afterwards. So that's a plus.
And honestly, I really don't have anything else. It's been four years, and somehow nothing is new. And maybe I'll post again sometime soon, but maybe it'll be another four years. Who knows?
Anyway.
We have three cats. I don't think we even had one last time I wrote here. We have Julian, our one-eyed orange butthead. He's three; he'll be four in March. Then there's Moosey-Moo. Or, well, technically just Moose. But he's got the most nicknames of the three. He's my babiest baby in the world. He'll be two in April, and he's so so so big - almost 15 pounds! We paid for a kitty DNA test and found out that he's mostly Maine Coon and Russian Blue (thanks Basepaws!). And then, finally, our most recent addition - sweet baby Cheese (better known by her actual name of Cheddar). She's five, almost six, and is the snuggliest monster in this house.
I'm still working the same job I hate, and feel like I'm going to be stuck there forever. I keep applying places constantly, but never hear back - and I almost think part of me is relieved by that. As much as I hate my job, I'm GOOD at it. I was an over achiever as a kid, who constantly was praised for doing well. I was praised for it so much that honestly, not being good at something is probably one of my biggest fears. And if I start a new job... I feel like, for me, if I'm not immediately good at it, I'm going to feel like a failure. How does that even make sense? Logically, I know that I can't immediately be the best at something I've never done, but at the same time, if I'm not the best then I'm failing. I feel stuck. And I hate it. I did just apply someplace though, that I think I can do. At least based on the job description from Indeed... but when I googled the company, it didn't seem to fit with the description on there. But who knows. I guess we'll see. It doesn't matter; I probably won't get a call or email back - I never do. It feels like to get a job nowadays, you have to already know someone working there. Whatever. It'll work out whatever way it's supposed to.
I've read a bunchhhh of really good books, and have new favorite authors. I love everything I've read so far by Sarah J Maas and Leigh Bardugo. I'm really enjoying the Nevernight trilogy by Jay Kristoff, but I don't know that I can list him as a favorite since I've only read two and a half books by him so far. But I'm pretty sure he's a favorite too.
I'm working really hard on paying down my debt. Between my student loans and my credit card(s....), I started this year with about $25,700 worth of debt. But I'm trying. I took my credit card and my Kohls card out of my wallet, and haven't used either this year. And if I've done the math right, I should be ending the year with about $21,000 worth of debt. Which is a lot. But it's less. I'm working on it. I'm getting there. I should be completely done paying off my student loans by July of 2025, and then my credit cards should be paid off shortly afterwards. So that's a plus.
And honestly, I really don't have anything else. It's been four years, and somehow nothing is new. And maybe I'll post again sometime soon, but maybe it'll be another four years. Who knows?
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