How do you say the right thing?
Dad,
How do you say the right thing when there isn't a right thing to say? Why did you have to leave? I miss you. Nikki misses you. Cody and Hailey miss you. We all do. When Nikki called me tonight in tears, I didn't know what to say to her. I just want to make it better for her. I want her to be ok. I wish I could be with her right now, just so I could hug her and just be there for her. I wish, I wish so so badly there was something I could say to her that would make all of this go away. I wish I could somehow go back in time and stop your death from happening. What do I tell her? What's the right thing to say? I don't think there is a right thing to say, so I just listened. All I knew to do was to listen to her, and so that's what I did.
I don't understand any of this, Dad.
I just want you back.
It's not fair. Why? Why did this happen? I just want to see you again. I want a hug, and to hear your voice. I miss talking to you on the phone. And I know Nikki does too.
Dad, on the first day of my placement in the school, I kept looking at my phone. I realized later in the morning that I'd been looking at my phone because I was waiting for you to text me to say "good luck!" for my first day being in the classroom, just like you did last time when I was in the classroom. I wanted to call you that afternoon to tell you about my day. I still want to call you. After each day in the classroom, I just want to call you to tell you how awesome my fourth graders are and tell you the funniest things they say. I want to be able to tell you how happy being in the classroom makes me, and how I know that I made the right choice by being an Education major and that being a teacher is going to be the best job in the world. I want to tell you how nervous I am about student teaching next semester, and I want to hear you tell me it will be alright and that I'll be fine.
I just really miss you.
How do you say the right thing when there isn't a right thing to say? Why did you have to leave? I miss you. Nikki misses you. Cody and Hailey miss you. We all do. When Nikki called me tonight in tears, I didn't know what to say to her. I just want to make it better for her. I want her to be ok. I wish I could be with her right now, just so I could hug her and just be there for her. I wish, I wish so so badly there was something I could say to her that would make all of this go away. I wish I could somehow go back in time and stop your death from happening. What do I tell her? What's the right thing to say? I don't think there is a right thing to say, so I just listened. All I knew to do was to listen to her, and so that's what I did.
I don't understand any of this, Dad.
I just want you back.
It's not fair. Why? Why did this happen? I just want to see you again. I want a hug, and to hear your voice. I miss talking to you on the phone. And I know Nikki does too.
Dad, on the first day of my placement in the school, I kept looking at my phone. I realized later in the morning that I'd been looking at my phone because I was waiting for you to text me to say "good luck!" for my first day being in the classroom, just like you did last time when I was in the classroom. I wanted to call you that afternoon to tell you about my day. I still want to call you. After each day in the classroom, I just want to call you to tell you how awesome my fourth graders are and tell you the funniest things they say. I want to be able to tell you how happy being in the classroom makes me, and how I know that I made the right choice by being an Education major and that being a teacher is going to be the best job in the world. I want to tell you how nervous I am about student teaching next semester, and I want to hear you tell me it will be alright and that I'll be fine.
I just really miss you.
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