A College Graduate

Today, I completed a journey in my life.  A journey that took 5 years (2 at a community college, then 3 at SUNY Potsdam).  Today, May 18th, 2014, I graduated Magna Cum Laude (a 3.73 GPA) from SUNY Potsdam, with a Bachelor's degree in Childhood/Early Childhood Education.


The three years at Potsdam were three of the best years of my life.  I had an amazing time at that college, and I am so glad I chose to go there to get my degree.

The next step in my life?  I have honestly no idea.  After months of consideration, I chose to take a year off of school before going on to obtain my Master's degree.  I want to get my Master's in Special Education, and while I am looking at several different schools, I am very interested in SUNY Oneonta.  But this year that I won't be in school?  I have no idea what I will be doing with this year.  I think I am going to apply to be a substitute in my local school district so that I have more time in the classroom and will gain more experience.  But I also kind of want to apply to different day care centers and spend some time working there.

The fact that I don't know what I am going to do next scares me.  I like to have everything planned out and I like to know what I am doing and when I am doing it.  So not knowing?  That scares me.  But I want to be scared by this.  I want to prove to myself that I can "go with the flow" and figure things out as they are happening.

Thirty-six days from now, I will be in Australia!  That's super exciting, but makes me nervous as well.  I'm going to be half way around the world - literally - from everything that I know and am familiar and comfortable with.  But I know this trip will be one I will never ever ever forget.

The future is scary.  And not knowing exactly what the future will bring is scarier.  But I know in my heart that there are good things ahead!

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