Happy birthday Candis

Candis is two years old today!  I wish she was still here in New York instead of Ohio.  I know her grandma and other family up here would've had a party for her, and I would've gone to it... I mean, she'll have a birthday party with her family in Ohio, obviously.  I just wish it was here instead.  But whatever, can't change that, I guess.  Time has gone by fast; I can't believe her and her mom have been gone for almost a month already (I think it'll be a month this Monday).

Anyway, I just want to say:

Happy birthday, baby girl.  I miss you soooooo much.  There's not a day that goes by that I don't miss you, that I don't hope you're safe and happy and ok.  Sometimes I watch the Surprised Kitty video just because you loved it so much.  Nathan misses you too, and so does Trisha.  Trisha talks about you all the time, and always asks about you.  I really hope you and mommy are happy in Ohio and that things are better than they were here.  You're special, Candis Jade, don't ever forget that.  Don't let anybody ever tell you you're not, ok?  Happy birthday.

And Nathan will be four in two days.  THAT is crazy.  It feels like he's growing up SO fast!  But... that's for another blog entry.  On, ya know, Friday.

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