A bit nervous at the moment
My first placement of student teaching starts tomorrow, and to say I'm a little bit nervous is more than a little bit of an understatement.
I'm basically trying not to think about the fact that 14 hours from now, I'll be in the classroom. I think I'm only nervous because I haven't been with this grade, this age, before. I don't know what second graders are like. This first week, I'm mostly just doing observation and seeing how my mentor teacher teaches, and then next week, I'll start taking over some of the teaching responsibility.
I don't know what to wear! Do I wear a dress and leggings? A long sweater and jeggings? Dress pants and a sweater? And which pair of shoes should I wear?
Why am I so nervous? This is ridiculous! It's not like I've never been in the classroom before. I have experience with kindergarten, first grade, and fourth grade. I've taught lessons (in first and fourth grades). I've had solo days in the classroom (in fourth grade). It's not like I don't have (some) experience, because I do. I learned a lot in my methods classes last semester and the semester before. I know I can do this, but I'm still totally freaked out anyway. Please say that's normal.
And then I'm super stressed out about the edTPA, which is the certification exam I'm working on during my first placement of student teaching (with my second graders). It's a $300 test, and the majority of people fail it. Encouraging, right? I feel like I'm not even going to be able to fully enjoy being with the students, as I am going to be so focused on the edTPA.
I feel like placement 2 (back with the fourth graders I was with last semester) is going to feel so much less stressful than placement 1 because I won't have to be focused on the edTPA.
I'm excited, don't get me wrong, and I know that placement 1 is going to be alright. I'm just... nervous. Really nervous.
I'm basically trying not to think about the fact that 14 hours from now, I'll be in the classroom. I think I'm only nervous because I haven't been with this grade, this age, before. I don't know what second graders are like. This first week, I'm mostly just doing observation and seeing how my mentor teacher teaches, and then next week, I'll start taking over some of the teaching responsibility.
I don't know what to wear! Do I wear a dress and leggings? A long sweater and jeggings? Dress pants and a sweater? And which pair of shoes should I wear?
Why am I so nervous? This is ridiculous! It's not like I've never been in the classroom before. I have experience with kindergarten, first grade, and fourth grade. I've taught lessons (in first and fourth grades). I've had solo days in the classroom (in fourth grade). It's not like I don't have (some) experience, because I do. I learned a lot in my methods classes last semester and the semester before. I know I can do this, but I'm still totally freaked out anyway. Please say that's normal.
And then I'm super stressed out about the edTPA, which is the certification exam I'm working on during my first placement of student teaching (with my second graders). It's a $300 test, and the majority of people fail it. Encouraging, right? I feel like I'm not even going to be able to fully enjoy being with the students, as I am going to be so focused on the edTPA.
I feel like placement 2 (back with the fourth graders I was with last semester) is going to feel so much less stressful than placement 1 because I won't have to be focused on the edTPA.
I'm excited, don't get me wrong, and I know that placement 1 is going to be alright. I'm just... nervous. Really nervous.
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