December 16th

Another day down; just two more left!  A science test tomorrow that I don't really care about (she drops the lowest grade, so if I don't do good then whatever because it won't count anyway), and then my science final on Monday.  Ahhh I love being almost done with the semester.

Today was the end of the semester luncheon (it just took me four tries to spell that word right) for the tutors.  No more tutoring sessions to lead this semester :(.  I love tutoring so much; it's fun to me and I like being able to help people.  And plus by tutoring, I get better a understanding of the different ways people learn and everything like that.  It's a really good thing that I love tutoring, seeing as I want to be a teacher.  I can't wait until next semester just so I can be tutoring again!  (Not gonna lie, the $8.85 an hour is a plus too. haha)

A week from today, I'll be at dad's house.  It's 9:35 at night right now, so I'm pretty sure we'll be at dad's by then.  Unless traffic is, like, really unbelievably awful.  Which I hope it isn't.  I figure, if it takes about 10 hours to get there (well, 9 maybe. Depends who's driving and what way we go... I'm just gonna go with 10 though.) and if we leave at 8 in the morning (Grandma isn't gonna want to leave earlier than that, I don't think anyway.) then we should be there by like 6 at night.  I think.  I could've done that math wrong.  I'll feel really stupid if I did though, because I counted it out on my fingers.  And 6 isn't that late, that's like dinner time-ish.  And dad said he'd order pizza from CiCi's Pizza, which is like the BEST pizza ever in the history of the entire universe.  It's better than 4 Brothers pizza, which I thought was the best until I had CiCi's.  It sucks that the closest one to me here in NY is almost an hour away.

It's so weird when song lyrics fit what you're thinking right at the very moment you're thinking it!  I'm listening to the 3 High School Musical soundtracks, and the song "Gotta Go My Own Way," and some of the lyrics... woah.  I didn't even realize it before, but how me is this lyric:

It's so hard to say, but I've gotta do what's best for me.  ... I've got to move on and be who I am.  I just don't belong here; I hope you understand. ... At least for now, I've gotta go my own way.

Hello incredibly accurate lyric.  Who would've thought a High School Musical 2 song, a Disney Channel song, would actually be relevant to real life?

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