December 27th

Home tomorrow!!! We're waking up at 7, eating breakfast and finishing packing, and then leaving around 8 to head back home! I'm so happy and excited and I really just can't wait to be back.

My step-mom went in to total bitch-mode on me this morning because I flipped out at my grandfather. See, every single time that I eat something and he's there, he makes comments about how I don't eat enough. He's always like "you didn't eat anything." And it's not every once in a while that he says it. It's ALL THE TIME. And really, I'm surprised I haven't flipped out at him for that before this. I mean, I do eat. If I never ate anything, I'm pretty sure I'm dead. I'm at a healthy weight for my height. AND I've ALWAYS been small for my age. Always. It's normal for me. But yeah, I completely freaked out at him this morning and yelled at him and my step-mom yelled at me for yelling at my grandfather. But really, it wasn't her place to say anything at all! She doesn't get how he's constantly giving me shit about not eating enough. She doesn't get how he's always making comments like that. She doesn't get that I really have no respect for her at all, so it doesn't matter to me what she says.

I can't put up with them all any more. Mostly my grandfather and my step-mom. I can only take them for so long before it gets to the point where I'd give anything to be away from them. I'm soooo happy to be going home tomorrow. Then it'll be forever and a day until I have to see my step-mom again. And once we actually get home, I can go a few days without seeing my grandparents. Don't get me wrong -- I love my grandparents. But after a few days stuck in the same house as them... I just can't do it.

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